"Don't blame people for disappointing you, blame yourself for expecting to much from them"
Lately I have thought about expectations. The expectations I put upon myself, the expectations I put on others. I really need to stop putting expectations on others because I find that I'm always disappointed. I feel I put unrealistic expectations on others. I want to be the type of friend who's always there for my friends no matter what's going on in my life. But lately, I've had some stuff happening that really just terrifies me. And I find that I've put unrealistic expectations on my friends. I get my feelings hurt that they haven't reached out more. I KNOW in my head and my heart what's going on with me is important to them, but I find when they don't reach out I get disappointed. Some people who I haven't expected have reached out, message almost daily to ask how I am, or poke me or something silly which makes me laugh and smile. Other friends don't ask me what's wrong but they do reach out and I'm thankful for that. Sometimes getting out of my own head space is good! Means I'm not worrying about an upcoming out patient surgery which I know is going to be okay but it also opens the door for "what ifs." So I don't blame my friends for not reaching out, I blame myself for slapping these unrealistic expectations on them. It's not fair to expect them to do things when I don't always do the same for them. It's not fair to them for me to expect them to reach out when I haven't told them this is what I need from you.
This also leads to expectations of oneself. Especially when it comes to blogging, I put very high expectations on myself. If I can't get an alpha to work, or if something isn't clicking with me, I simply won't blog it until I'm happy that what I'm wearing represents the creator I'm blogging for. For example the shirt I am wearing is from Aurora's Closet. I love this shirt, I love how it fits, and I love the look of it. I love that it exposes my tummy and works well with my mesh body. I went sim hopping one day about a week ago when I received this and took tons of pictures but not one of them I felt was very good so I wasn't going to blog it because I didn't feel that it represented me or the shirt very well. So I talked Cedric into going with me to L'Arc-en-Ciel. We walked around and he shot the first picture near the entrance point. I love that he caught the aurora borealis in the night sky. If you've never been to L`Arc-en-Ciel then please go! It's a beautifully well done sim. If you wish to rez you'll have to pay a group fee, but the sim is so well done for me it was worth it so I can go back again and again.
Body:
Glam Affair (Creator aida Ewing) - Amberly - America
Slink: (Creator Siddean Munro) Hands (Casual) Feet (High)
Mesh Body: (Creator: Onyx LeShelle) Maitreya Mesh Body Lara V2Skin: Glam Affair-Amberly America
Eyes/Make-Up:
IKON (Creator Ikon Innovia) Hope Eyes Emerald
- DAMNED (Creator DAMNEDshop) - My perfect eyelashes
La Boheme (Creator Santana Lumiere) Lipstick: Glossy Wine 08
Jewlery:
.:L&B:. (Creators Lapointe & BastChild Designs) "Celtic Femme" Wedding Ring - Platinum v2
Hair:.ploom. Yuki
Outfit
~Aurora's Closet~ (Creator: Aurora36) Frilled Ladies Off Shoulder Crop Top with HUD (8 colors/styles to choose from)
.:L&B:. (Creators Lapointe & BastChild Designs) S'Wear "Capri" Pants - Denim
