I'm gonna put my body first
And love me so hard 'til it hurts
I know how to scream out the words
Scream the words
(I love me)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
I adore the song "Love myself" by Hailee Steinfeild. I think the message is empowering. We need to love ourselves before others can love us. To me I'm not a person who looks at the glass as half empty but as half full who's ready to fill it with more fun things. Lately, I've been trying to love myself more. To stop being around people who constantly look for the bad in everything. I decided to love myself enough to put on this sexy little dress by 20.Five, I went for the soft pink but there are a few other choices that I could have chosen. Then I stared in the mirror. In real life, I'm not much for makeup but on SL... I love wearing makeup, especially by LaBoheme. I love her makeup because when I wear it, it doesn't do whacky things to my eyes like some makes up do. After applying my smoking eye shadow, I decided to make my lips kissable!. (Colors listed in my credits.)
I'll take it nice and slow
Feeling good on my own without you, yeah
Got me speaking in tongues
The beautiful, it comes without you, yeah
With reminding myself to love myself, it brings me to those that can't. Who always look for the bad in every situation. Who can't be happy for what they do have, or what they're given. I've never understood people like this, I've never understood pessimistic people. I want to say that I get it, but no.. no I can't say that I do. I spent 8 years with a guy who was the biggest pessimist. There was negative in everything, and after awhile it just drains you down so much that I had to get out or I was either going to kill him or myself, lol. (No seriously I wouldn't have done either, but I knew that I had to get out to save my self and my soul.)
I'm gonna put my body first
And love me so hard 'til it hurts
I know how to scream out the words
Scream the words
After awhile, no matter how hard you try, how much you give to a person, it simply isn't enough. Of course at the end of the day it's always blamed on others, they can't look in the mirror and say "I was at fault in this too." I know when I left my boyfriend after 8 years, I knew I was to blame too, it wasn't all on him. There were so many factors in our life that WASN'T good, we did have a lot of good times and we do remain friends to this day. He's actually one of my best friends, but at the end of the day, we were meant to be friends and not in a relationship anymore.
I guess the point of all this for me is... Love yourself, love yourself more then anyone else does. Take care of you, be happy for the good things that are GOOD and that are RIGHT. The rest will fall into place. But if you focus on all the bad, and you constantly criticize others, at some point, they're going to walk away because they'll either start to get depressed because nothing they do is good enough, or they know that nothing they ever do will be good enough so it's safer to move on before they're emotionally destroyed.
Sorry for such a heavy blog. I've actually been sitting on this for a few days trying to decide, but then decided to write it and publish it.
Events
Cosmetic Fair November 15th-30th
Thrift Shop Nov 8-29
Namrah's Look:
Body:
Slink: Hands (Casual) Feet (High) | Siddean Munro
Mesh Body: Maitreya Mesh Body Lara V3.0 | Onyx LeShelle
Skin: Glam Affair - Amberly | Aida Ewing
Outfit:
20.FIVE Mesh: Neus | beanster Potato (New Release)
Jewlery/Accessories/Makeup:
La Boheme |Santana Lumiere
[LB Glamour Eyes] Circe Set 2 - 2 @ We <3 Roleplay
[LB Kissable Lips] Ombre Set 2 - 10 @ We <3 Roleplay
[LB Ombre Glossy Set3 Pink] (OMNI Set - Slink Omega Maitreya) @ Cosmetic Fair for Nov.
Hair/Eyes:
Exile:In These Shoes? | Kavar Cleanslate
IKON Hope Eyes - Denim | Ikon Innovia)
Poses:
Pose- Something New – Blog my Pose| Allyson Dwyer- Thrift Shop