Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Fantasy Faire Blogger Challenge: Why I relay

When all the world is spinning ‘round 
Like a red balloon way up in the clouds 
And my feet will not stay on the ground
You anchor me back down 

It's that time of year again when sims arond the grid begin participating in Relay for Life. My favorite evnt of all time is Fantasy Faire which opens Thursday April 23rd and runs until May 3rd. This event only lasts 11 days. It's an amazing event where we step back in time and walk the realms of fantasy. I've not been on SL for all 7 years of this incredible event but for the last 3 it's been one of the biggest events of my SL life. I annoy my husband endlessly weeks before about how it's coming and count down until it's arrival.

Relay for Life is an amazing fundraising oppurtunity for many people. Before my dad passed away, I relayed because it was the right thing to do. It helped research and others. When my father got sick then passed away it became personal. This year Relay for Life takes an even different turn for me.

For over a year I have had health issues. Female health issues. It has been the worst. I've gotten fired from a job because I thought I had been approved for a medical leave of absence. I found out 3 months after they'd fired me, lol. Ah well. It's been a roller coaster ride for shore. First trying to figure out why I was going through what I was going through at such an young age. First doctors last year just told me 'Oh it's pre-menopause, lets give you an IUD and you'll be fine." Well lady, I've had a tubal ligation for 16 years, I'm fine without birth control but thanks. Not any other option was talked about, that's ALL she wanted to do. So for a year I have suffered.

In Feburary of 2015 I finally got much needed health insurance. I made my appointments and began the task of finding out what was wrong with me. The first visit went okay, nothing major just going over my history without the doctor having past medical records. Just talking, listening and totally hearing what I had to say. Giving me options of what might happen and could happen. I finally felt at peace. I was going to be okay. Then the next appointment, more tests, another sonogram. This time something was found. A mass on my ovaries. It was a Thursday when they told me. My doctor had been called away to deliver a new babe. Couldn't be mad but the tech over-reacted flipped out that we were going to leave without my results. Breaching protocol to tell me what she'd seen. Though she's not a doctor she knows good vs bad. Tears, fear. I'm to young for cancer, but I know cancer knows no age. Cedric was amazing. The staff as well, they finally got a nurse to talk to me and she said that they're not sure "what it is but the doctor would look at it." The staff bent over backwards to reassure me, and make sure I was seen as quickly as possible. With a weekend though, yeah. Gave me precautions and we went home. What do I tell my kids? What do I tell my family? Most of all if something happens to me, what is going to happen to my mom. It was a hard weekend, one filled with tears and a lot of fear. Google is not always your friend when you're going through something like this. Self diagnose is worse.

After seeing my doctor finally for a follow-up. Surgery was scheduled. He wasn't so concerned about the "mass" as much as he was concered with other things with my uterus. So he wanted to take a looksee. So we went home with high hopes of having a solution and a step forward. My luck though of course not, things couldn't go smoothly. I found out that my insurance didn't cover that county. Covered the doctor if I stayed within the town I lived in, but the minute we went to *that* county no go. So... I had to find a new doctor. It's now April 1st. The last of my records have been sent. It's been so frustrating. So tiresome. I don't know what's wrong, I just know that I'm tired of having the lower half of my body control my life. Now I wait until they get all the records, and read them. Hopefully soon. Hopefully I'll get an appointment in the next week and surgery rather quickly. Or it'll have to wait until May because at the end of April I make the long journey to Wisconsin to bring my son home for the summer from college. In some ways, I hope it's after, I want my family close, I need my children near me.

I'm still scared. Worried, stressed about it all. It could be absolutely nothing at all. And.. it could be more. So this time the reason I relay has become very personal. I take pride in every blog post I do, every thought that I pour into my posts. I don't know whether or not I'll be accepted to blog officially for Fantasy Faire this year or not. This will be the 2nd time I have applied. I will blog it regardless. I blog it because I love it. I take pride in what relay for life stands for, knowing that every linden I spend at these amazing events goes to cancer research.

I relay for me.
I relay for my children.
I relay for Cedric.
I relay for my mom.
I relay for my Emma
I relay for the memories of my dad.
I relay for those lives lost.
I relay for my family.
I relay for my friends and famly online.
I simply relay because it's the right thing to do.

I want to thank the sim owner of Garden of Whimsy for allowing me to rez on her beautiful sim. It's full of wonderful places for pictures. There are so many little knooks and crannies, and alot of her own poses out. I wanted something to where I could use a pose with my daughter. The owner of the sim: Aash Writer  was so kind and gracious.

Posed used: GlamRus Kidz Tell Me Everything (found on Marketplace)

On my beautiful daughter Emma posing in these pictures with me.
Toodledoo Avatar
Outfit: *Baby Pie* Charlotte (Found on marketplace)
Hair: D!va Juno (In-World)

~Namrah's Look~Body:
Glam Affair (Creator aida Ewing) - Amberly - America
Slink: (Creator Siddean Munro) Hands (Casual) Feet (High)
Mesh Body: (Creator: Onyx LeShelle) Maitreya Mesh Body Lara V2Skin: Glam Affair-Amberly America
Mesh Ears: Sinful Needs (Creator: Galathir Darkstone)

IKON (Creator Ikon Innovia) Hope Eyes- Passion

Outfit: Solarium (creator rynn Verwood) - Forridel Gown - Purple
Solarium sim currently closed due to a remodel. Look for fantastic creations by rynn Verwood and Encaitaron Korobase at Fantasy Faire

.:L&B:. (Creators Lapointe & BastChild Designs) "True" necklace, and earrings
Roses Crown Glow Designs (Creator sckarlett.fairywren)
Hair: TRUTH(Creator Truth Hawks) Freya Newish Release

Dreaming Second Life Flickr Page

Song by Mindy Gledhill: Anchor