“Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?"
"That depends a good deal on where you want to get to."
"I don't much care where –"
"Then it doesn't matter which way you go.”
― Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
It's been a crazzzzy few weeks. I finally got out of training for my new job and my hours flipped opposite of what Cedric's are, then on top of that we had the holidays. I have let so many people down over the last few months due to the fact that I'm not used to working. Cedric is always there for me, always has my back and I haven't been the best to Him. I've pushed Him away and those that trusted us. I've hurt a few people and that pains me greatly. But sometimes things just happen that are out of our control. With the upcoming weather I decided to take the day off to have a much needed "me" day. Since I stayed home, I wanted to slip into something a little naughty and a lot sexy so when Cedric got home I could meet Him at the door. I think he liked it as He pushed me against the glass of His cabin and just drank me in. I was warmed by His love and His glance.
This picture was a little bit darker then I wanted, but I dunno, I think it fits the lingerie rather well. I'm wearing Passion Red by Glitzz. This is a hunt gift for the CDH2 (Christmas Desire Hunt)
Sadly, this hunt ends on December 30th but you can find this gift in the main store of Glitzz
This time of year makes me so thankful for my family and my friends. This is our 9th Christmas without my dad so as the holiday fast approaches I think back and remember my memories of him, and the new ones that I have made with my SL Family. WOW. this year has been such a gambit of emotions from happy to sad to happy again, I'm thankful to all those who have shown me the true meaning of family and friendship. So to you, this holiday season may it be Merry & Bright!!!!
The last few months have been an emotional roller coaster. I realize how lucky I am, how blessed to have those around me. I hope they know how much they mean to me, and how often that without their love and their support I would have walked away. Also, I hope those that I have unintentionally hurt know that I never meant to hurt you, and that I am sorry for that. I've decided for my first New Years Resolution I'm going to work on being a better person, a better friend. I'm going to try and stay Merry & Bright, and I'm going to try to be the kind of friend I want my friends to be to me.
As I count my blessings, and am reminded of those that are in my life, blessed. I wanted to go home to my original sponsor. 2 Chez was one of the very first people I approached regarding blogging her items and I feel bad as it's been a long time since I have blogged for Gigi. She does amazing textures, and I love that she's also starting to create more for he maitreya body though I never had issues before, but it is still awesome to watch my sponsors grow and branch out. I can honestly say I'm proud of all my sponsors. Some I have become good friends with, and some I do what I need to do, (hopefully more sometimes!) and get the job done. I treasure my working relationship with my sponsors. Thank you for believing in me and allowing me to feature your items week to week, month to month. Truly, you're amazing. Kristy is a new release from 2 Chez, and it comes with a pair of shoes, and a texture hud. It wasn't to difficult to decided PURPLE for me. I am not wearing the shoes that came with the outfit though, I happened to like how the Reign boots looked with this dress so I kept them on. I hope you too will enjoy this wintry dress by Gigi.
La Boheme has some awesome hunts, sales going on in world in her store. More like Steals and Deals if you want my opinion on it but if you're looking for some new polishes for the holiday season, you should check these beauties out. :) (Deets below babes)
REIGN.- Mishi Thigh High Boots | Oրհεlἶმ Kεղმძεε F. Rεἶցղ (kenadeecole)
Jewlery/Accessories/Makeup:
[LB Christmas Spirit] OMNI Set - Slink Omega Maitreya | Santana Lumiere
Monthly Freebie~ Join the group to get this freebie, then leave if you want (Hey her words not mine) but these are beautiful nails and Santana always has great goodies going on.
Poses: !bang - stands 350-359 | Lυηα νση JυвιƖєє (luna.jubilee)
Last pose use with hands near face .Infiniti Handy | Brandi Monroe Sim Used: Blaze Winter Wonderland
There are so many words that I wish I could say, sometimes I have them, sometimes they just fail me. Blogging helps express myself sometimes, and other times I get locked up in what is in my head and what I want and need to do. Today, I slipped into this warm turtleneck sweater by Kaithleens that you can find at Winter Trend until the 18th of Dec. Then snuggled into my guy because it was COLD! Catch me! which I found appropriate because sometimes I feel like I have been falling, falling falling, yet Cedric is always there to support me, pick me up, brush me off and tell me that it's going to be okay. Lately though it's been the other way around, I'm trying to be there for Him, to catch Him, and let Him know that it's going to be okay.
~I needed to kneel because I wanted to, because I was inspired too not because it was required. It was a deep ache within me. Kneel, show my submission. Show Him that I needed and loved Him. Lately though I haven't felt that need, that hunger, that inspiration and I know that it's something I need to refind. So I slid into this new body suit by Glittz. I slide my legs into the lacy, slowly pulling it up my body. Feeling it encase me. I took a deep breath, my eyes closed and I knew.. I knew , and I knew I wanted to kneel again. I felt elegant yet sexy. It plays hide and seek with your senses leaving you wanting, needing more. I continued pulling it up blushing abit as I saw myself in my bedroom mirror and could see part of my bottom, then slide my arms into the sleeves fitting it to the rest of my body. I was in love.. and I knew that Cedric would be pleased when He came home.
So, as I waited, I sat in front of my mirror to apply my red lipstick because I feel every naughty girl needs to have red lipsticks, then a very carefully applied a heart to them wanting to express my heartfelt gratitude on how he makes me feel. (Okay cheesy I know even for me.) Then I painted my nails wanting to look pretty for Him. The lipstick was easy to do with La Boheme's help and my nail polish was done by Dark Passions. Many color choices to the lipstick and below are your color choices for the nail polish. Snowflakes and snowflakes with little skulls in the center. You can be elegant and gothic all at the same time!
The time was drawing near for Him to be home. I was excited, I was nervous but I knew that He'd be pleased with all my hard work. So I settled to my knees and waited.....
The dress I am wearing is called Wendy, it's at Enchantment for just a few more days. Glitzz is a new sponsor of mine. ~squees!~ This dress comes in several colors (Black, blue, pink, and white) Each are very sexy and pretty. I just HAD to blog it. The pose that I am using, actually COMES with the dress. Bonus for pose whores like myself. :)
.....that every good story should have a happy ending. That sometimes what is seen on the surface isn't always what you should believe. I've always loved the story of Peter Pan but I often wonder what would have happened if Wendy had grown up in Neverland would she have fallen in love with Captain Hook? Sometimes the bad guy needs to be loved too. :) \
I still believe...
Pose came with Wendy dress
.... in love at first sight, I believe that you can love more than one person at a time. That our hearts our capable of so much more. I still believe in the magic of the holidays. I believe in the things that go bump in the night.... I still believe....
Something about updo's that I felt really top'd off this outfit (no pun intended), it almost gave me a tinkerbell look but that isn't really what I was going for, I just loved what Helyanwe Vindaloo did with this updo and had to share it. I love that I could tint my hair lightly pink on the ends to go with the dress. I also glossed my lips with a heart shape kiss by La Boheme. MWAH... I wonder if I kiss your cheek if I leave my heart imprinted on you? Maybe?
He sprinkled me in pixie dust and told me to believe
Believe in him and believe in me
Together we will fly away in a cloud of green
To your beautiful destiny
As we soared above the town that never loved me
I realized I finally had a family
Soon enough we reached Neverland
Peacefully my feet hit the sand
And ever since that day...
Even though I'm a girl, not really a "lost boy" the song "Lost Boy" just sinks into my heart and my soul.. I love the lyrics, I love the meaning.. It's as if I was lost.. but with my favorite stories I'm right where I belong.
My tattoo by White Widow and the !bang stands are also at Enchantment. There are several different poses for you to choose from. I actually put mine into a pose stand then raised it so it looked like I was flying. Last but surely not least I painted my nails with Whispers of Winter by Dark Passions. For me no outfit is complete without my nail polishes. Sadly the Cosmetic Fair ends today but don't despair, Miss B will have it in store soon so you should RUSH there and buy. And shop and snag up some of her gift cards that she has available for your friends or just be greedy and buy for yourself. *NODS convinsingly* Shop her sales and just SHOP. :) So there are several colors to this polish but here are four of my favorites.
*All event/creator details are listed at the bottom*
Kaithleen's put out this little black dress called Serena for the 24 event that was in late October, early November. I love how little black dresses always make me feel sexy no matter what's going on my life, I slip on a sexy black dress and the world changes. I grabbed Cedric because we have't had much time together over the last few months since I went back to work. We used the !bang pose from the November round of We <3 Roleplay called Akin.
I wandered over to another event to pick up this pose by Eternal Dream called pouch, it comes with several model like poses, I chose this one to show off my make up and nails! My make up is by La Boheme available at the Cosmetic Fair, and my polish is by Dark Passions, also at the Cosmetic Fair. I feel so pretty! And sexy. Ready to take on the world or just snuggle by my man.
Another shot of the pose Akin, Cedric was wonderful to pose with me.
Below is a collection of colors you get in the nail polishes by Dark Passions, Black Gloss Glitter Tips I love the tips and how they sparkle.
I adore the song "Love myself" by Hailee Steinfeild. I think the message is empowering. We need to love ourselves before others can love us. To me I'm not a person who looks at the glass as half empty but as half full who's ready to fill it with more fun things. Lately, I've been trying to love myself more. To stop being around people who constantly look for the bad in everything. I decided to love myself enough to put on this sexy little dress by 20.Five, I went for the soft pink but there are a few other choices that I could have chosen. Then I stared in the mirror. In real life, I'm not much for makeup but on SL... I love wearing makeup, especially by LaBoheme. I love her makeup because when I wear it, it doesn't do whacky things to my eyes like some makes up do. After applying my smoking eye shadow, I decided to make my lips kissable!. (Colors listed in my credits.)
I'll take it nice and slow
Feeling good on my own without you, yeah
Got me speaking in tongues
The beautiful, it comes without you, yeah
With reminding myself to love myself, it brings me to those that can't. Who always look for the bad in every situation. Who can't be happy for what they do have, or what they're given. I've never understood people like this, I've never understood pessimistic people. I want to say that I get it, but no.. no I can't say that I do. I spent 8 years with a guy who was the biggest pessimist. There was negative in everything, and after awhile it just drains you down so much that I had to get out or I was either going to kill him or myself, lol. (No seriously I wouldn't have done either, but I knew that I had to get out to save my self and my soul.)
I'm gonna put my body first
And love me so hard 'til it hurts
I know how to scream out the words
Scream the words
After awhile, no matter how hard you try, how much you give to a person, it simply isn't enough. Of course at the end of the day it's always blamed on others, they can't look in the mirror and say "I was at fault in this too." I know when I left my boyfriend after 8 years, I knew I was to blame too, it wasn't all on him. There were so many factors in our life that WASN'T good, we did have a lot of good times and we do remain friends to this day. He's actually one of my best friends, but at the end of the day, we were meant to be friends and not in a relationship anymore.
I guess the point of all this for me is... Love yourself, love yourself more then anyone else does. Take care of you, be happy for the good things that are GOOD and that are RIGHT. The rest will fall into place. But if you focus on all the bad, and you constantly criticize others, at some point, they're going to walk away because they'll either start to get depressed because nothing they do is good enough, or they know that nothing they ever do will be good enough so it's safer to move on before they're emotionally destroyed.
Sorry for such a heavy blog. I've actually been sitting on this for a few days trying to decide, but then decided to write it and publish it.
It is never very hard for me to kneel, it's never hard for me to love. Sometimes when I love, I love so deeply that I ache with it. I ache with the need, the hunger and the desire to be needed and loved in return. Sometimes it hurts to to need to be accepted and loved so much. I think that's sometimes in relationships I get hurt, because I wear my heart on my sleeve, yet sometimes, I forget to communicate, to tell those around me what I need, what I'm feeling because I don't want to lose them OR hurt them either.
I applied to blog for the Kinky Monthly awhile back, my beautiful sister Savvy blogs for them, and I was really impressed by the quality of items she was blogging so I decided to step out from under my rock and apply. I was thrilled when I was accepted. Even though I'm a pretty open book sometimes it's not very easy to strip down and expose myself to others. I'm often told what an extrovert I am, if they only knew how much I was shaking on the inside. I fake it good!
Enough about me and my rambling insecurities, lets talk about this event, what I'm wearing and what I'm blogging about! The outfit is by SALT Casha dress up. I'm wearing teal but it comes in a plethora of other colors, it also comes in a tied version and an untied version. I'm wearing the teal tied version.
Should have known passing through the gate
That once inside I could not escape
I never thought this could happen to me
Never thought this is where I'd be
I'm in chains
The prop I am using is the new group gift from Something Erotic for the month of November called Caged. I was with Ally the night she was working on this and I was like OMG I have to have that! I have to use it, and it worked perfectly for this blog entry. Ty Ally. :) It has several different poses for you to use that I've used throughout my blog post. My hair is by Doe that you can find at the November round of Uber. I loved how soft it looked, I image that if my Daddy and I had a place with a basement and we could have this type of cage, in order to prepare for Him, I would wear a revealing outfit like this, as well as pulling my hair up and to the side so that I could enjoy His use of me.
I finished my look off with La Boheme, My cosmopolitian eye make up and glossy rose lipstick are a former new release BUT the Charisma nail polish? Are you ready for this? IT IS FREE right now.. uh huh you heard me FREE. How do you get it, I hear you asking in your head... like Namrah GET TO THE POINT NOW... I love a good tease :) Here's the catch it's ONLY Free until November 5th. So, if you want it.. you better HURRY. And while you're there, dig around for the Dirty Turkey Hunt gift, another wonderful freebie. Santana is converting a lot of her nails, these particular ones are now available in Slink, Maitreya and she's now added the Omega hud for other users. Amazing! 10 different colors for silver and 10 different colors for gold. I'm wearing the silver bottom tipped ones.
~*Souzou Eien*~ The Crucible Dungeon Skybox by Draconias Timeless
Last but certainly NOT least is a dungeon that's available at Kinky Monthly. Personally, I do not think my pictures that I took do this magnificent build justice, but I wanted to share it with you anyways. The cages that you can see do open and close. There are quite a few neat features about this dungeon. The door to the far left Opens, but it's just a skybox, so you could put a teleporter there I suppose. I'm not very good at that stuff, so I just landmark things *chuckles*, BUT I love this dungeon. This one is actually my sister Savvy's. She left it up and I borrowed it. Everyone SHOULD and MUST have this dungeon. :)
It's all about looking sexy sometimes. This Desmona outfit by No Name is just that. Sexxy. I feel beautiful when I slip into Blue and Destainy's clothes. You will be able purchase this outfit at Pumpkin Town until October 31st. I believe that No Name is preparing to release Desmona with a hud in multiple colors but for now you get hot hot red! I LOVE my red and black clothes. I wanted to look smoldering so I decided to style my hair in a short and sexy look which is by
Miss B or BCreative Wilde but I call her Miss. B worked her fingers to the bone this month at various events. Leather and Gloss is a high fashion polish that comes in black, white and a leather/brown with gold OR silver in the tip line. This polish was available at The Alchemy but you'll soon be able to find them in her store. I just felt they looked classy and I wanted to look sexy and classy. Did I pass?
So today my blog is going to be short and sweet. I started a new job so I'm behind just a little bit but I wanted to post featuring some new goodies from Dark Passions that are at Pumpkin Town. I love these fall nails, they're glamorous and fun! I'm also wearing a new release from a new sponsor 20. Five.
I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone
The dress I am wearing is called Berlin and is a hudded dress with several different colors. I went with my traditional black. I love it because you could wear this dress in real life to work with a sweater, then pull the sweater off and go clubbing with your friends!
Close up shots of my nail polish by Dark Passions called Lacey Leaves because I wanted you to see how beautiful and VIBRANT these polishes are. Also the beautiful hair called Gretchen I am wearing is by Doe and you can get this until the end of the month at The Seasons Story.
